只想变得更坚强强到能够去忘无所谓悲伤只要学会抵抗

2009-01-05T18:54:00.002+08:00

yea its a brand new yer.. i jus gettin too lazy to update blog and gg to close down soon already..
yup a brand new me, and past yr has been up and down for me

yea i believe tis is gg to be a exciting yr amidst financial turmoil which is gg to hit full blown,

nevertheless hopefully thing is gg well

to my sec sch buddies, u guys r still great as normal and 10 yrs more and beyond! the most impt pple of my life beside my family members

to my pri sch fren, yeah lets keep in touch, u all r great too...lets meet up often!

ready to set my goal into action, and to cherish pple i believe worth cherish and to forget those 'pple' i consider history since last yr!

2008-11-27T23:01:00.002+08:00

tooo busy to post...

AND i am disappointed wif some pple in sch ..simple as tat.. askin favour so difficult?

lucky i ask if not i will be kept in e dark! nvm i will do e same i guess to u all

i am disapponted and piss off.... seriously c thru some of u all again!

will post junyang bday pics soon!

some update and well my new canon powershot!

2008-11-04T22:19:00.003+08:00

last fri went to town wif andy, chill out at sakae sushi and thx for e treat at wheelock place, saw yuhao there, been a long long time since i c him. andy, will treat u back nex time haha!

then wkend chill out wif wen wen and yingin my sec sch bros, to go watch movie at ps gv, after that went to eat my fav supper!! thx for e ride home and chill out on sat nite ! hehe

then proj and more r comin up! i gg crazy!
yesterday (mon) went buy my buddy junyang present ! haha a nice swatch watch , hopefuly he liek it! cant wait to lok forward to FRI! celebration of his bday!

anyway i got a new CANON POWERSHOT SX110IS DIGICAM at a gd steal, a new model, simply love it!

catchin up wif chun wee

2008-10-23T00:56:00.001+08:00

finally tonite manage to catch up wif chun wee sia.. chill out at siam kitchen b4 gg macafe..

haha i was actually and really lookin forward due to the fact that we 2 close fren has not meet for a YR! omg... coz he been too busy sailing and being a naval officer so much busy.. but since he now settled in sg liao, yeah its great that we can meet up more often soon!

haha logn long catch up, very nan de.. too much to write abt.. jus lookin forward to cya again nex mth hopefully :)

btw where is my canon pay? i am seriously zzzz and a bit piss!

Day out at msia wif buddy junyang:)

2008-10-18T23:06:00.003+08:00

yeah dint go work today..basically pon canon la, sick of it lo
went msia wif buddy :) , his gf and fren.. have fun there seriously...
food there is simply delicious and gorgeous! u feel like rich man there when u eat food seriously at restaurant..dun need to think so much jus pia eat ! haha...

oh yah we watch movie MAX PAYNE at cathay citysquare msia! so cold.. movie soso nia...

some pics to go :)

my pic, my buddy junyang, and notice the HUGE and i mean huge big fat straw and the HUGE nearly 1 LITRE of passion fruit tea!!!
i cant imagine it seriously.. my stomach got extreme bloated! anyway its sososo worth the money.. e food is SHIOK!

2008-10-16T23:14:00.001+08:00

finally my long lost gd buddy chun wee finally get to sms mi back after he been sailin for many months as naval officer! yeah! meetin up nex wk! :) lookin forward!

tis sat slackin,. gg to msia wif buddy jy and his gd to slack and eat and shop..haha..
omg miss one day of work
haiz!

yesh i am workaholic but so wat? coz i need $$$ !!

new sem has started i feelin so tired ..3 module on finance but mi lookin forward to digital photogrpahy! goona get a new Canon POwershot Sx110IS..yeah..
btw canon suck at givin pay! i am DULAN oct pay haben giv emi wtf sia!

2008-10-16T23:03:00.000+08:00

long post updated

2008-10-11T23:45:00.002+08:00

omg... i guess those pple who have been readin my blog fidn my post outdated! yup!
been workin non stop from mon to sun from mornin to nite for one month! very exhausted and fatigue lo and sick 2 times!
will post many pics soon...
been chillin out wif sec sch buddies and bros for dinner and supper at town to various places!
Thx to my 3 kors, Junwen, Tong Lam, Jeff from Great Eastern Life, who hav takin care of me while at work and enjoy e fun times! u 3 r great! :) thx a lot!
thx to eve and huili for the souvenir u buy form japan! i really liek it!:)
buy a very exp adidas jacket very nice, a polo and a top and a short all from adidas!
photos and all stuff to be uploaded soon!

2008-09-28T11:44:00.003+08:00

lookin forward to e car show today, too lazy togo work ya...!!motorshow here i come!, gg wif my buddy junyang! :) yesterday after worlk went his hse see F1..shiok sia ...i mus go watch again soon in live action nex yr or at most the yr after:)

i agree wif the email xiupin send:) haha

mooncake celebration.. sorry for late post

2008-09-21T21:49:00.004+08:00

pictures tell it all..thx buddies for e nice mooncake chill out past wkend! pai sei for late post coz too busy everyday workin needing $$$ to buy my stuff :(needmoney desperately!!
so tired wif mon to sun work! need to train for 2.4km run sia.... haiz no time

yesterday(sat) hang out wif my bros at town and starbuck chill outing and catchin up :)

log off to slpzzz

2008-09-12T23:06:00.002+08:00

pai sei for e slow update..

i jus start work as admin clerk in Great Eastern Life..pay suck but no choice 1 mth...

past tue was sharon bday and wen bday 9 sep

but we celebrate our dear sharon bday on 8 sep due to everone schedule

pictures spell a great word and all of us including sharon, was gathered ! power of 9!

so Nan de:)

Joyce, Me, Weijie,Junyang, Jasmine, Jiahao, jiahuan,XiuPin... all my besties and buddies :P

we hav nice dinner steamboat at sharon hse :)

over math of Nike Human Race Run 08

2008-09-02T00:47:00.003+08:00

went for nike run wif buddies on sun, jiahao, weijie, xiupin , jia huan and mi!
and Not forgeting my elder Kor, zhong yi :) and zm

super crowded thx to last day of it show...

wat a tiring run and fun pacing wif wejie :)

take photos wif them and kor, we decided to take ippt togther ard nov and standard chartered(haben decide distance )

kor went home after tat to study( jia you fo ru degree and pls dun stress hoh)

and mi went wif buddies to Waraku eat a scumtpous dinner and we headed for home:)

i am achin all over and sufferin from e strain on my left leg..painful :(

end of exam! and i need $$$ and need job!

2008-08-29T01:10:00.003+08:00

ok end of exam.. end of my sufferin till oct mid when sch reopen :)
went out wif gang to go eat steamboat at tian tian, i got my printer mp145 at 99bucks sia quite a bargain but still not as gd as the one i give weichong ! haha u win lei! teh freebies i think suck for mi.. whereas eveline got a hp printer instead.. still my skill is still so up against those sales people i feel! lol.. and tis is true and wif premium brandin and pdt quality, canon is still up ! haha

i need $$$. tml goota fix my goddamn fujibye laptop in sch..thx lo.. i condemn tis brand la..and go tutor i wan get my money la.. u forgot giv emi sia!

wjbday :)

2008-08-20T15:34:00.003+08:00

yesterday went ROCHESTER to celebrate buddy wj bday sia :) so exp lo there but so damn high class :) heck it wear polo and jeans there haha... very very excellent service and very very nice french food and also the excellent fondue choco.. so irressibitable.. and damn exp but we got free compliments due to 2 complains :P.. after tat went pub at ONE ROCHESTER another freakin excellent and heavenly place... only u been there u can tell it.. so like heaven and excellent service :P
thx wj for treatin for us for his bday... a few hundred bucks sia ..lol..thanks so much :)
some pics below :)
tml is BFI exam and i feel so dead jia lut..so got tutoring at nite..god damn it!

2008-08-17T01:19:00.002+08:00

overslept and miss tutoring ya..omg...

went to work and guess wat? i sold ard 16 printer ba.. weichong come down find mi :) and got some model for a really gd deal sia!! aha u owe mi a gd meal!! lucky star aha ...

i was so piss off i get e same error when i mount prostreet game into my com..duuno wtf happen say invalid charcter? y all pple nothin happen and only mi? u blooddy DAMN fuckin Fuji BYE to u death laptop! i m so goona fuckin condemn u u bloody sucker jap laptop!

when i heard zm sayin so many outside stuff and so much thin to memorise for exam..i am damn sian liao by 1/2.... mayb nex wk c meet up to study togther .mmmm

2008-08-15T22:41:00.003+08:00

wed go watch mummy 3 wif weichong and rc... not bad ba e movie even though pple say no gd.. nice and funny too.. went eat at Carl Junior... 1st time in tis yr eat... nice sia so far..so huge and shiok lo... and went aracde to slack.. it sbeen at least so so long since i step inside though i quite sian of there ...

today went back sch to watch pple present rwps b4 eatin in sch and head to funan wif weichong and brendan.. he wan buy printer from mi but think tml will get it ba haha...

after tat meet zm to go find a few job , then after we head home individually ba..

tml u big big bday 18th to be exact.. wish u all e best hoh and dun always so pessismistic like mi lo..
i feel so stress so many tutiion and high transport expenses.. the tuition still owe mi money sia :( sian la e feelin

GREAT chill out on National day :)

2008-08-09T22:23:00.004+08:00

yesh i feel so excited for today.. went beach wif sec sch buddies after so long sia rite?
junyang, jiahao,jiahuan,jasmine,weijie,sharon, xiupin :) thx so much....
thx so much for e food u all prepare esp thx to weijie mum,sharon and xiupin and thx to buddy junyang again for e car :)
we feel so old sia.. run a bit then so exhausted..lol.. jus a bit tired and really fun playing :) lookin forward again in few mths to come :)

nice dinner at Kim Gary wif u all and nice chill out today seriously :)
forgettin all e worries, enjoying e breeze wif u beloved buddies always, under e nice warm sun and brezzy weather, away from the hustle of city life.. wat more can i expect ? :)
pics to be uploaded asap :)

2008-08-09T07:28:00.003+08:00

yesh i lookin forward to today.. omg yet mon is my 1st paper.. not even a single bit has started..
erm c how lo...

oh yah i seriousli dislike pple when u ask someone some stuff, he will reply u wan u go 1st la in a bu shuang manner... there is no need for u to flare up? bcoz of wat? u think u big F bcoz u got someone? u manner and attitude seriously change! u changed coz u dint noticed it, coz u assume pple will be stupid enuff to stand by u, and from today on i wont... its true always pple can look at a better perspective than oneself. Let mi tell u tis, u r not worth of my trust and concern anymore, and all in past r jus bubbles..

anyway i not gg to let tis fren spoil my mood for today..heck it...

2008-08-07T20:09:00.002+08:00

a bit random.. both Zen xifi 8gb creative mp3 player of mi and weichong :) simply luv e glossy look
courtesy of my fav N95 :)
nice pic of legendary NIssan GTR 35 which is tuned to 550horsepower.. thx shun he.. an eye opener, and thx for gettin the good deal of watch for my buddy.. thx so much!
tml my big presentation liao..omg...
oh yah one thing,

2008-08-03T05:03:00.002+08:00

now is 5am liao..yesh i am blogging coz i jus bath finish and back from my pri sch gathering...
thx wenjun for e nice ride home at 4 plus am in e morning :P

went to meet the pri sch gang at west coast mac.. hav a introduction b4 went to Minds cafe at boat quay... zhen zhen and wenjun was driving and we split up b4 meetin up there.. it was really really fun wif all games and punishment.. nice! really enjoy ourselves seriously...

joanne wenjun guanghong yewwai zhenzhen mingyong yiixue weijie zi haur and christopher was present, it was great to hav at least more than 1/4 after so mnay years :)
then went to our jurong west which is near our pri sch and we west side boyz and galz... hav nice frog porridge and really tok cock and seesion to catch up wif one another :P to 4 am plus!!!!!
b4 wj drive us home...
PS: hope u car is ok from e thing jus now and everythin be back safely.. i guess e few of us feel guilty but anyway thx so much

PHOTOS to be uploaded later :)
pending chris faster pls!!!!!

later will be workin :( canon lo....

2008-08-01T23:24:00.004+08:00

more relax liao but nex wk another macroecon exam..kao siao lo...
tot can relax and so many stuff i dun understand liao.. ZZZ... FA CA results cfm chui liao nex wk

went to watch money no enuff ..lol... comedy overall yet hav sadness element in it..

ask u some qn : if blood bank left only one packet of blood, between u mother and u children, WHO will u SAVE? difficult rite?

how abt if u best fren and u gf r being forced to drown in pool, who will u save?
hard to make choice?

that is up 2 u decide then...

and there is something already .. we all hav grown up so big liao..young adults, i feel all of us shld be more independent and not jsu always rely on u parents to help u sponsor this and that on thos unnecesary stuff? u dun feel Guilty meh? ask urself.. dun take pple for granted ! that e pt! basic thing such as hp bills such be paid by us i feel unless u parents r really willingly to go all e way for u
jus simply no mood nowdays.. feelin so volatie... AND TO GIVE UP ON SOME STUFF ALREADY
not bcoz i wan to back out coz i feel there is no meaning in continuing already

2008-07-30T18:54:00.002+08:00

finally my sis was back from india ..haha got for mi a nice turquoise key chain which meant to bring good luck! hope to use it soon

so tired that i went home slp for few hours due to the lack of slp past few week for proj ...
gg to slp again soon to catch up on rest...

was thinkin some stuff? how u define a fren worth for u?
coz ren xin nan che...
pt is if u r so into some stuff already, that u keep neglecting shen bian de ren and give e classic excuse , i seriously c no pt in that.. goes out to some pple in real life
no pt in helpin u out since u got pple to rely on already
as i say if u need mi to help , u will come, if u dun need that is fine, since no pt in mi helpin u out when always got someone there for u... and when u need help or ask mi a favour, it is Bcoz u couldnt find anyone so find mi rite? sound like a spare tyre ba..

proj comin to an end and relax liaozz sort of

2008-07-30T00:58:00.003+08:00

finally end of all proj.. only left PPT presentation though not as xiong as report...

feel so tired after it but feel relaxed too..

went JP wif my close pri sch fren wenjun for a dinner meal and catch up wif each other as usual :)
coz we both been busy for a while... gg 2 meet him and a few pri sch fren on sat ba.. but i will be quite late i think...

went eat supper at ah mei kaya toast at bukit ttimah.. our usual and fav hang out for supper...
went wif sec sch buddy jy , wj , xp and jasmine :) shiok i am damn hungry nowdays..but dosent seem to gain weight

soem pics from night safari on last sat

2008-07-28T00:15:00.002+08:00

here i am now as i type doin my last 2nd proj to be hand in on tues..ecm..faster complete pls...

i am really exhausted by then.. 2 more days...thats it! mus perserve on!

nvr went work due to exhaustion, bring laptop over to buddy weijie hse as i play Wii and same time doing MA regression but MA was total failure sia... thx for e relaxation for a while wj.. jy , jh, jasmine , xp and our new member jia huan aka jh gf was there.. nice to meet ya :)
thx so much guys..really, u made my day a better one, seriously... i feel really tired but it feels great really to be wif u all! i feel blessed too..

went to cck a halal store to eat.. and have a long chill out b4 headin bak for home...

tiredzzz

2008-07-27T02:55:00.002+08:00

i m tired but busy tryin to chunk out data, only to discover i not sure how to convert ..omg hav to wait for my grp member to help convert, then i can start regressing liao!!

night safari trip was great with sec sch buddies!!!jh, wj, jy, jasmine, xp! thx!
photos to be upload nex day! but very exp but nic enice.. a gd experience my 1st time there, so excited and look forward.. went eat supper at cck b4 a nice ride home in jy car as usual...

duuno wa time to slp...

2008-07-26T01:11:00.001+08:00

finally the killer accts is over.. yea..wkend is here..but i change my workin place due to a bitchy female woman from fuwell...nvm u gg to get back from mi soon :) teach u back wat u teach mi!

meet up wif dear wz and ronald for usual supper at bukit timah to catch up and tok cock session..shld be meetin them again nex wk again... boring tuition but hav to endure on mon and fri
money keep mi gg haha hopefully

omg tue is deadline for another 2 final proj.. blessing and misfortune.. jia lut means hav to chiong?sux...

tml night safari yesh!!

2008-07-24T19:21:00.003+08:00

omg tml my nitemare sia... FA ..jia lut lo

and still got gems presentation zzzz

i lost my crm lecture note.. then go photocopy again.. zzz waste of money and duuno where it goes

during crm tat teacher was sayin about loyalty, sudden she mention to us she has seen friends remain loyal to their close friends even though they hav been treated badly and yet still remain loyal to it even though has been treated badly.. she say e word FOOL... tat really intrigued mi...
nvr expect she will say tat..
but come to think of it tis way - wat if e thin happen to u? would u remain loyal regardless of how u close fren treat u? dun hestiate to make decision readily, u all slowly think over it and answer thru u own heart..

dun ask mi wat my answer wil be But i can assure from e bottom of my heart i rather be e one suffer than my fren suffer ba...

went spgg wif weichong rc and brendan, shit i dun really understand accts zzz dead?haha

2008-07-21T21:02:00.003+08:00

the very same Zen X FI 8gb as weichong..haha.. excellent sound quality and beautiful screen and at 68g, super light and i really luv it..god like sound quality wif sleek look....but duuno how to convert video sia... and a nice watch white baby G got at a fantastic price thx to shun de..

after this FRI gems presentation and FA (killer) hopefully i can pass lo..if i can..jia lut sia..
basically after these 2 wil be 60% relax coz left MA and ecm zzz sian 1/2

was thinkin somethin jus now.. when i c other pple in other faculty doin some boring stuff, i feel pitiful coz tat so routine job stuck in a room everyday really very hard to pass.. then Zm was sayin there must be someone in there doin that, due to diff lvl of class , if u can make it to the higher lvl, u r blessed, if not jus hav to make do wif it.. i somehow agree but feel i am slightly mor blessed? i wan more money ! and earn more haiz..to stop spendin splurge

duuno waitin for someone someday someplace i can meet some pple, for my future life nex time

2008-07-21T01:48:00.002+08:00

had a bad day in my com store where i workin..
thx to the old female boss aka old bitch in fuwell... she e one havin attitude..very piss off
F u bitch.. pls get run over by vehicle or i pray hard mayb u black face husband hav another wife outside.. pls let it happen.. u r a threat to humankind

anyway meet up wif weichong rc and brendan go watch movie.. come home quite late..nice and long movie i would say.. hope to hav another time soon again...

very bad week ahead... and pls i hope some stuff will be better.. some pple to treat mi better? i duuno.. i become very afraid of bad attitude...

2008-07-20T00:19:00.002+08:00

went watch Red Cliff wif buddy weijie and xp at lot 1...long movie but nice nice..cant wait for e 2nd part...i feelin so tired since then.. buddies X files nex wk?haha

boring work and i hate but no choice..

Pple doesnt deserve to get hurt for the thing that u done... u know it i guess so..
pple doesnt owe u... y reject pple help? random ...
andpls be more thoughtful of pple feelings, no matter male of female..humans hav feelings,
dun be too engrossed in some stuff that u abandon pple..nvr do that coz u nvr know when u ever need u close fren once again... random...

it all bores down to jus the heart..ask urself whether u been doin it right anot..

2008-07-18T01:51:00.002+08:00

ok siao lo last min changes to our big proj.. 'thx' to that teacher and made many pple so unhappy..

went wif weichong to buy zen xfi jus now..ha mi feel so bad like tempt him to buy..in e end we 2 buy together..then rush home liao to rest..

went out to eat wif sec sch buddies jh, jy, wj, xp .. thx ar for e nice camry ride :) nice food and thx for e really nice tok over session..

best friends or even buddies or even normal fren shld tok thing over.. it takes lot of courage but then i feel it is e best way b4 thing gets worse ...

2008-07-15T23:36:00.005+08:00

struggling with 2 critical project to hand in by end of fri.... somemore its a big module proj.. jialut
feel so stress...
someone there to lighten my load?
anyway thx to those sec sch buddies who always stand by mi in times of bads...

and to those pple whom i jus got to know better, i think thing can get better soon?

and last but not least, for those who used to be close yet now so mo shen(so near yet so far),
i jus hav to say i cant do much liao, since u choose to stay a distance away.
even if there mayb a day u need help or u come back, thing will not go back as normal again. u get wat i mean .. since u choosen tis option, i wun force anymore.. thx for e happy memories, hopefully one day i will still rmbr if time is not cruel to mi.

thing will change and people will change, i seem to be repeatin again and again, i jus cant feel helpin tis way.. From so much to tok to each other and confide , into sometimes that i hav to struggle find topic to tok and to c the person attitude and temper, sometimes even got ignore on calls and sms, and all i get is jus cold shoulder, how sad rite?? i jus can only express here, swallow it myself ba... U may not realise it urself, or u realise and jus dun bother to care about mi ba i guess, since u feel got better pple to find now and tok to... i would not wan to say who..
No MAtter wat, jus still wanwish all e best and gd luck .. i m all behind if u ever need my help! that is if u ever need help ba but mayb not anymore from now already

2008-07-13T13:53:00.003+08:00

hancock was a nice movie but the plot jus too simple.. went to watch wif sec sch buddies wj, jy,xp and jy gf on fri nite at lot 1! gt home very late but thx to jy, thx for e ride home as usual...

on sat work as normal, but been thinkin on how to do my gems proj, haiz, no one seem to be doin anything and so hard to contact..gone case la.. cmi lo..
but meet up wif sec sch buddies at wj hse to play Wii, to relax ba.... xp, jh, jy and jy gf too...
great pple to be wif, great times, so tired come back only on today morning...

yup gg to do proj as normal.. i been tied down wif many thing in mind...
some thing has gone and pple treat nothin has happened, that is e most worryin part..
y do i always hav to wait for pple and make decision? coz i respect them but pple jus take tis respect for granted, really disappointed...

1st proj completed...few more to go

2008-07-10T21:53:00.002+08:00

zzz i got embarras today in lecture sia...

now pple who am i liao , beside e fact so many junhao in my course...

i am tired , sick of proj, no mood to do sia...

thing that r urs will be urs, no pt forcing, tryin to get this into my head

some thing ought to be clear up b4 it get worse...

2008-07-09T23:45:00.002+08:00

thx andy so much for enlightening mi ba...
will meet up wif u again soon...

if only some pple can be as nice and understandin as u ba..

enuff said... lookin forward to nike run? i duuno hopefully ba..the tee is really nice lei...

i wan watch red cliff too! but duuno when ....

2008-07-08T23:57:00.002+08:00

不管用走的或跑的,始终还是会到终点.当你在跑的时候,你会不知觉的错过美好的风景.不如放慢脚步,慢慢的去欣赏风景. 人生也不过只是这几十年.
-a quote from a fren...

5 proj r killing mi each day as deadline is near

imagine u keep tokin to u pple, and all u got is always a uncomfirm decision, its like killin u hope alive..
imagine urself tokin to pple, and the reply u get is jus noddin head, somehow it seem to be jus acknowledging for e sake of nodding...
imagine urself , all u wan is jus helpin pple w/o anything, all u get is jus taken for granted.
Imagine.. this and that..sound like Samsung..IMagination...

how will u make u decision?

can i jus work everyday to forget everything? PLs... sound like a workaholic but i guess the only way to forget my troubles..It contradict wif my quote

MoNdAy

2008-07-07T22:36:00.003+08:00

tirin as usual..lecture non stop till 5pm... tons of proj and tut i say..
no motivation to start yet force abit here and there :(

zm send mi a nice sng name xiao qing ren..very nice esp e chorus part..i only know tis song anyway... e feelin to drink bubbletea under hot sun damn shiok after sch
went imm wif zm to buy his stuff and slack ard a while b4 headin home for dinner ya...
zzz feel so lethargic to start anythin..rottin on tv more like it..
shld be takin part on Nike run ba
simply sick of proj...
feelso lethargic...

2008-07-06T11:34:00.002+08:00

suppose u were to accidentally find out from a msg tat u someone close to u actually msg e other person bad thing abt u, sayin abt u character , how u feel? Shock? disappointed? wll u confront the person?

this thing happen sometime ago, but now i jus duuno wat 2 do. i m sure many pple mayencounter tat feeling b4. wat wil u do? yesh u may be very close, but how abt in e future when someone close meet another better one? yup u can say tat is parcel of life... all e effort tat r put inside in maintaining has gone to waste.. i m not being realistic, pt is that y cant pple jus put in effort in appreciatating it, im sure thing will be better... its bcoz of knowin each other tat u accept pple faults, it bcoz of tat that u become closer, sadly to say pple dun c e pt.. Even as i m writin this now, u may read this, but u may not put in action, as U assume that is the way friendship, love or family ties r.. u take this for granted..
lettin go is always the last resort, however many pple took it too lightly, always making us eof excuse like not for each other, too tired, too bored, no common topics and or perhaps tat person has no value to u anymore, or the person always cling on to u, eventually leadin to 2 person fallin apart...
jsu too tired to think of it anymore, been tryin to forget it, but it seem so hard..

a very bored fridayzzz

2008-07-04T20:10:00.003+08:00

tuition was cancelled, very zuo bo now at home, wkend workin till 7 pm ...

As i was gg home jus now, passin by traffic lights give mi some question,
A life journey can be like a traffic light, when it is red u stop by to meet new stuff and new people, when is green u move on to u nex destination? right? i feel i stoppin at red light very often, not bcoz i dun wan to move on, its bcoz sometimes i feel so tired and feel so disappointed when thing dun turn out e way u expected.. been tryin to self improve but duuno wat went wrong again.. i feel changes in close pple ard mi, i wun say its bad, jus tat i really wish to go back as b4..

if there is any misunderstanding, i really wan to clear up.. but duuno hav a chance mah..
thinkin of happy times can make u self indulge in happiness, but tat wun last.. tryin to find a way out,
oh yah i believe when u treat pple gd wilingly, u shld be rewarded but none in some cases, some pple may hav changed but at least dun forgot how pple bring u happiness and help last time ba ..
hold true for families and fren ba

Dear pehyan is back , but gg back again..

2008-07-02T23:59:00.002+08:00

our dear sec sch fren pehyan is back from scotland! but gg back soon! gg to miss u alot really!
great to catch up! cya again sia! meet up at ding tai fung eat! haha u grown more beautiful as ever...
joyce and wj and jy attend too! of coz mi! haha really gonna miss u dearly!!!
jus now noon do a bit borin proj and meet up wif wen!

end of CA and start sch liao :(

2008-06-29T23:41:00.002+08:00

there is nothin big abt CA..some r badly done..
went out wif eve, zm and e rest to sing at katong shoppincentre..intro them to a cheap nice place to sing.. then i went meet weize and his gf for dinner ...
Sat- went work for canon as usual.. zm come find mi to buy hsi disk and mouse muc cheaper.. then went off ... i meet buddy junyang and his gf and jiahao for dinner at imm...
after tat chill out at my warm small little hse .. thx so much!

whatever e case, some thing really made mi disappointed..
jus wan say am i doin e right stuff? how i wish thing can go back normal? wishful thinking jh!

tired from FA test

2008-06-24T16:56:00.003+08:00

at least can pass but duuno how gd sia
well 3 more papers to go..and free...quite slack nowadays sia ..
zzz ..tml crm heck it lah.... duuno wat will come out..zzzzz

do u believe in fu chu effort , yet people jus dunno or rather dun really take it to heart?
the fact is in reality most cases, u wun get back yet will u still do it?

or is the process of fu chu then u discover u r wrong? or to make u stronger?

anyway i believe in fate and karma..thing u do today to pple, how u treat, is because of fate that bring pple together, also how well/bad u treat pple , u will get back in e end...

last day of holiday

2008-06-22T22:30:00.002+08:00

jia lut tml will be 1st paper.. hopefully its ok... cant wait to be over...
wen out eat dinner at imm wif buddy jy,jh and xp... e rest not free sia..happen to saw wenjun at imm..ha wat a concidence...
oh yah jy u better hav an early rest coz u havin bad headache ba..

gd luck to zm , eve , huili and e rest for paper tml and to mi too!!!

pics or actions sometimes speak a thousand words

2008-06-21T00:02:00.005+08:00

thx guys today for the mass bday celebration at glass hse...

my god i feelin tired after drink the sweet martini
intro by buddy zm

sometimes when pple has changed, u can feel it, when pple r no longer that close to u anymore
try hard as u may to recover it, yet deep down u know somehow there is no pt and no turnin back, only to ren ming... i starting to doubt the quotes i post online...
advice is not to think so much, but its too easy sayin than done sometimes?
tiredzz....

pls read thru and digest it

2008-06-20T12:40:00.002+08:00

some of very meaningful quotes :
-為你的難過而快樂的　是敵人
為你的快樂而快樂的　是朋友
為你的難過而難過的　就是那些　該放進心裡的人

-有時候　不是對方不在乎你　而是你把對方看得太重

-真正的好朋友　並不是在一起就有聊不完的話題
而是在一起　就算不說話　也不會感到尷尬

-朋友就是被你看透了　還能喜歡你的人

if u dun understand can ask mi ba..
i feel very meaningful..go read thru it to digest..u get the meaning.
gettin e meanign yet no action is still useless

haizzz

2008-06-19T19:51:00.003+08:00

well its been last wk of holiday...
too much to study and sianz.. motivation no there
how i wish to take a break somewhere...
tml meetin up wif zm and e rest for a dinner...
its weird that no matter how nice u be and how much effort u put in,
something won go u way, some pple wun bother to apprecitate it

nothin much i guess

2008-06-18T00:40:00.004+08:00

back from tiger beer promoter job alone.. hey jason, thx so much for e ride home and also thx so much for e supper treat !
IT show is over... hopefully can get 400 over for money...pending..
test is comin and i feel i freakin out..no time.. and slack...
oh yah buddy is back finally but nvr even tag my blog once sia..aiyo..aha...

PC show 2008

2008-06-15T00:32:00.005+08:00

jsu back from 3 rd day of PC show 2008..a bit disappointin..day 1 to day 3, 17 , 20 ,20... seem to be a few set lesser than IT show 2008 ..haiz..tiring..went to eat late dinner 10 plus pm at makan sutra wif my close colleague shunhe(LG), Chuanteng (viewsonic),Jack(buffalo),zhixian(DLink) and also epson edwin..all from fuwell last time..
later last day..tiem to chiong..omg i nvr study for CA lo siao lo..haiz dun think so much ba..haiz pls giv emi at least 23 set later last day ..haiz...

a nice chill out wif my close pal huijie and ronald

2008-06-12T00:29:00.003+08:00

hey thx u 2 for e belated bday treat! thx o my close pal hujie for e nice thai express treat and ronald for the movie treat! kungfupanda was nice!! great! 4/5 i give :) huijie, that noodles i eat was so hot and spicy... thx to e cucumber and tomato, it made mi better :) i learnt some stuff!
oops forgot to take photo wif u 2 :( anyway thx a lto , thx for u great advice too..it always feel nice tokin to u 2... i m serious! on whatever advice !

sad my FUJITSU aka FUJIBYE laptop cant play simcty socities..wat a farkin disappoinment..y wen wen can? no fair! goddamn pissed! wtf ???

later is a battlefield..1st day of IT show.. duuno got time to help buddy get stuff mah but will try hard to find time ... u ar zm buddy enjoyin in aust while i suffer alone soon to be... better get mi sometin gd when u back!

2008-06-09T16:56:00.003+08:00

hey zm ,yi lu shun feng..of coz enjoy u 8 days trip to aust and cya in e meantime nexweek...

well from this thu to sun hav to fight alone , jus like a battlefield.. hate it sia...

nex tue too i gg to solo do tiger beer promoter job too..duuno which old singer..haha

2008-06-07T23:47:00.007+08:00

went to sec sch buddy wj hse wif junyang to play WII, its very exciting..so tempting to buy but its so exp

been waitin the whole day for some stuff but dun wish to mention...

- fren r forever,lover they r not...

6 june my official bday

2008-06-06T23:57:00.003+08:00

thx to my sec sch buddies for celebrating wif mi :)

really appreciate the effort and of coz...omg thx for the braun buffel wallet... really really like it sia :)..omg think it cost a bomb...but i simply love it.... thx junyang, weijie, sharon.xiupin , jasmine ,jiahao..:)
and thx jiahao for the nice souvenir keychain u bought back from HK!

yeah i am one yr older officially...

2008-06-06T00:25:00.004+08:00

thanks to my Kor , zhongyi, same day same mth as mi to celebrate together :)

thanks to calvin, ronald,weize,andy,patrick too...

too bad not enuff time to chill out but there is always another time rite?

:)

some of my bday pics at sakura retaurant

2008-06-05T13:55:00.001+08:00

some chalet pics

2008-06-05T13:36:00.001+08:00

back from chalet and early bday celebration :)

2008-06-04T23:23:00.002+08:00

from monday to wed, i was havin chalet wif my nice banking mates... a gd break finally :)
away from the hustle and bustle of city life and school work
on day 1 of chalet , went to giant at tampiness wif buddy, julia and shufen..omg its my 1st time there.. it was so huge.. bought so many stuff and went off to costa sands chalet..
have a nice bbq tat nite and play many games :)
e characol that we bought suck.. in e end buy another packet..buddy was havin a tough time buildin e fire due to lousy charcol .. haiz i did a badjob this time round marinate chicken fillet.. jia lut sia... play many lames games murderer when we r are the shagggiest ...
buddy was busy concotin those weird vodka wif many other liquid.. busy testin for us, guess he drink e most... for mi i tio many times wasabi wif those vodka... the taste was weird but still alrite.. not bad after taste haha. play some mini mahjong too
on day 2.. buddy left chalet and left the 8 of us ... gg cycling from pasir ris to tampiness to and fro..being lousy in cyclin, i was always the last sia..diao ... then go tm buy food and slack...
day 3- went home finally to rest lo

a shag day from chalet wif my nice banking mates

-photos will be updated soon guys: either here or friendster

went home slept, in e end i overslept badly, suppose to meet at 6 pm at city hall ctrl,
end up i wake up at 540pm and rush down..opppssss

went to eat sakura international buffet wif buddy zhimin, eveline,huili,wanling,benji,shufen,julia,jeraine. :)

haha of coz i treat lo, but i was broke now liao..haiz... so long u all enjoy e scumptous meal
gd liao... busy snappin pics..will be updated soon

was very touched when zhimin, eveline and huili pop out wif a nice tiramisu cake..thx a lot :)
omg i am older by one more year old... time flies..gotta grow up Junhao!

workin for click 5 concert

2008-06-01T22:59:00.003+08:00

today went to work for click 5 concert aka tiger beer promoter wif buddy zhimin.
eve and huili also went wif us coz they watchin e concert..

b4 tat went to bugis to buy some stuff for some pple...

too bad this time round e concert is a bit muffled(i mean e sound) not up 2 expectation
as compare to elton john and james blunt concert..
but maroon 5 still e best in term of sound system ba

here a pic of us

its a wkend nothin extraordinary

2008-06-01T00:47:00.003+08:00

ok well its a sat or shld i say sun liao...

thx 2 both of u all for advice regardin both stuff.. i wouldnt wan to say but thx a lot

thx 2 sharon and xp to show concern and whoever

workin as normal...

i hav sort thru my thinkin already and plan wat to do next...

if u c a sudden change in my reation towards some pple, be it gd or bad or neutral, dun be shocked ba

reach home at 3 am... thx cousin ken! u e best! have a great chat and many things!

apologies

2008-05-30T21:30:00.007+08:00

TGIF? nah i dun believe it..

yes its holidays, but 3 wk yes, however i dun look forward to it at all...

today i duuno wat happen... perhaps i made a person wait too long, then she start to dislike mi...
tat person also even state sumthin on msn that is so obvious...

ok i will declare a distance and givin up ...

another thing is perhaps thing r not same as b4,
sorry to disturb u always, my sincere apologies, i will try to be the best i can be,
but i will not disturb u that much from now on...i promise.

and today may 30th, i will always rmbr this day for it hurt mi e most since e past 2 yrs

sian lahzzz

2008-05-29T17:34:00.004+08:00

bad weather as usual...
doin e final bit of ma report deadline tml... sian lah

tml morning still hav another RWPS killer test, seriously i duuno which shld i go abt study..
jia lut lo?? argh wat shld i do sia??????

yup tml is friday and i am damn sianz! seriously no plans at all... feel a bit lonely ba haiz sianz!

now e cloud seem so cloudy , make u sian lo to e extreme... Hmmm

something just come to my mind, treat a person nice doesnt means u will be treated nice back rite?
or izit?

but i believe in one thing, helpin u family and close buddies is not a responsibility, Rather it is Happiness..

day at settlers cafe

2008-05-28T18:46:00.006+08:00

wanling bday, settlers cafe holland v , that is mi, my buddy zhimin, wanling,eveline,huili,benji,willam..b4 tat we went crystal jade xiaolong bao eat-a sudden idea, but well too bad someone dint go? haha...erm while eatin, they all were givin mi opinions on someone, mi being indecisive, haiz...or well i hav doubts in mind.... i been wonderin how it actually feel like to be in love once again? feelin so weird yet so near? wat shld i do sia? haiz...

my new laptop skin- Astroboy!

MY new silvery psp slim lite

2008-05-28T00:47:00.001+08:00

glossy psp nicezz

some glimpse of MAYDAY concerty wif buddy zhimin

2008-05-28T00:12:00.005+08:00

buddy zhimin and mi at mayday concert

another pic of mayday

2008-05-27T22:48:00.003+08:00

a pic taken in forbidden city wif my buddy zhimin after my work!

nice rite? a view from central jap teppanyaki restaurant. (courtesy of my N95 and zhimin photography skills)

2008-05-27T22:46:00.003+08:00

my 10 yr of sec sch buddies!
we chill out till 3 am plus wif late nite movie after my work
that was damn tiring!but worth it!

after a long absence

2008-05-27T22:18:00.005+08:00

ok its been a really long time since i updated my blog
i dun wish for much pple to know about my blog,
jus a place for mi to pour out my sorrows and perhaps enjoy happiness?

its been 6 mths i know
many thing hav already happen... someone that is so call once close to mi hav left as in still in tis world but no longer in contact.and few of my close fren know about it.thats real sad but wat can i do? when pple dun treasure u or jus used u? wat can u do?
simple nothing...u paid u efforts, and for mi its not jsu about gettin back e effoorts u paid, its more about the process of happiness, but yet the other party simply dun give a damn.
cant help but feelin sad even till now, sometimes once in awhile.
Been really glad that i hav a group of very close sec sch buddies ard for mi always... in times of ups and downs... esp junyang, xiupin, jiahao, sharon! oh yah jiahao is comin back from HK nex tue... after 6 months..miss ya! jus in time for my bday celebration...
oh yah got to know my poly buddy , zhi min, much better, ever since last yr and thru out the holidays and really understand each other better ba.. though i dun wish to comment on some stuff, but anyway thx u been another great fren that stand by mi... but all e best to u as u found u new love, but dun always her lei..haha ..zhong se qing you lei!!!
but some things cant go back as b4...
some events that happen

- watch Mayday concert wif my buddy zhimin on may something i forgot! omg..after that went for a nice drink at a pub...
-erm been workin on ang mo concert as tiger beer promoter wif buddy zhimin ..earn 7buck/h..not bad though!
-workin on wkend as canon printer salesperson( too tired nowdays and bad sales)

dead...omg is sunday

2007-11-04T11:55:00.000+08:00

tml is my CA le..shit... i duuno wat to do..tonite cfm chiong..now tryin to read up rest of e MOB..

jus hope for e best..

yesterday jus went to play poker wf my gd fren ronald and a few specs ..lost 2.5buck after playin s long.. sian lo..

after tat for dinner mi went to six avenue one cafe to eatwif a few of my sec sch buddies..tats is a gd place seriously

i will intro u all to tat place one day..nice atmosphere..ambience..perfect chill out place for with a grp of close frenz

2007-11-02T22:18:00.001+08:00

just rmbr... bon voyage to someone gg on cruise today and enjoy ya...hmmmm

so tired....

loookin 4ward to gg out perhaps catch a movie nex wk? and to fix my ever postpone digicam :(

its a fridayzzz

2007-11-02T17:35:00.000+08:00

slackin at home today...

tryin to studyin yet canot...

too addicted to GE le..must curb it...

gg out to hav a quick dinner wif my close buddy weize , as he hav an impt dinner later wif his future..haha..gd luck then!

well dun understand ever since some stuff happen few wks ago, wkend to mi seem to be meaningless.. doesnt even look forward to at all..in fact i hate it...

nex wk my CA le..yet i not even worried at all..somehow tis time..seem to be gone already..

i noe musnt give up... duuno wat can push mi further in life.. somehow not much motivation...

last sun jsu finish a 10km New balance X terrain run..xiong sia.. i duuno wat push mi on..mayb bcoz of someone.. duuno.. if someone nvr ask mi to go run for this event, i guess i will be slackin forever..thanks!

oh yah jus cum acorss a song.... very touchin..very meaningful..

伍思凱

時間已做了選擇什麼人叫做朋友
偶而碰頭心情卻能一點就通

＊因為我們曾有過理想類似的生活
　太多感受絕非三言兩語能形容

　可能有時我們顧慮太多太多決定需要我們去選擇
　擔心會犯錯難免會受挫幸好一路上有你陪我＊

△與你分享的快樂勝過獨自擁有至今我仍深深感動
　好友如同一扇窗能讓視野不同
　與你分享的快樂勝過獨自擁有至今我仍深深感動
　好友如同一扇門讓世界開闊△

Repeat ＊△

與你分享的快樂勝過獨自擁有至今我仍深深感動
好友如同一扇窗能讓視野不同
與你分享的快樂勝過獨自擁有至今我仍深深感動
好友如同一扇門讓世界變開闊

back to posting after a year

2007-11-02T17:31:00.000+08:00

Finally after a year of abescence from blogging...i back..but well to very low profile...
jus wan to go back to a peaceful life...

只想变得更坚强 强到能够去忘 无所谓悲伤 只要学会抵抗